Who is Miss Glitchee?

I am who I am, I am in the act of creating myself, and I can only do that in the space of who I am not--
and so I have carefully created who I am not in order to experience who I actually am.^^

Thursday, February 28, 2013


*VAIN (adj.) characteristic of false pride, having an exaggerated sense of self-importance

Once you told me that you deserve to be alone.
I regret that you feel that way about yourself.
I remember feeling sorry, being concerned.
I used to believe that no one has to be that desolated.
There are about 7 billion people in this world,
that  no one deserves to be lonesome,
no one deserves to be lonely.
And yet somehow you are the one who keep isolating yourself.
Your means, your ways, your choices--
exile you from the people who are there to give you love.
It's as if you're yearning for solitude.
For if you only appreciate enough,
you could have had more than one could wish for--
you could have had your one in 7 billion.

Yet you chase for something more--
something you don't know, something that will satisfy you.
And that is very dangerous for someone who is insatiable.
Your selfish greed failed you in appreciating
the goodness that you already have.
Coz you are ravenous, who always wants something more.
Hunting, risking and gambling your chances,
until you find something better.
Forgetting to look hard enough to see
the beauty of what you already own.
You're pushing your luck beyond its limit.
And you'll end up defeated.
You'll end up tired.
For you've chased and then you chase some more.
Until that chasing consumes you.
And you'll lose all the chances you're given.
It'll move you further away from the simple light of life and love--
to the deeper darkness of your obsession.
Of your self-made vanity.
And there, you'll be getting what you think you deserve--
you'll be ALONE.


"There I was cold, isolated and desperate for something I knew I couldn't have-- a solution, a remedy, anything. I hated it. Alone and confused was the last place I wanted to be-- yet somehow I knew I deserved this."
-- Brian Kranz, A constant Suicide

Thursday, February 14, 2013


*ARDOUR (n.) a strong and intense feeling of love or enthusiasm for someone or something

Love is never a choice.
It is an overwhelming power you just cannot resist.
You can never play safe in the game of love.
Nor even plan for it.
You cannot love just for convenience.
Nor settle just for security.
For love is a gamble.
It is taking chances.
It is giving in into that emotion--
that no matter how hard you try disregarding,
just kept on creeping in.
You cannot run away from it.
Cannot escape it.
And if you do, and choose to wind up for something else--
that hollow feeling will haunt you forever.
For not being strong enough.
For not being true enough to yourself.
For letting go of that someone you really love.


**a valentine memoir

Wednesday, February 13, 2013


Things only exist so long as we believe in them--
that is the Tinkerbell Effect.
Happiness for example--
we can be happy so long as we believe we are.
But for us people,
it is somehow unusual for us to speak of our joys.
It is but a modern tragedy that unhappy people tend to communicate more.
We feel more when we hit rock bottom.
We are driven when we are in pain.
We dwell on the sadness.
We find it much easier that way at times.
And that's simply sad.
But come to think of it--
happiness is nothing but a choice.
Dream of it.
Strive for it.
Seek for it.
For as they say,
the most important is the pursuit of happiness.
Not its attainment.
Nor its final definition.
But its pursuit.
Never give up on that--

Tuesday, February 12, 2013


*FORTITUDE (n.) the strength of mind that enables one to endure adversity with courage

"I just wanted to be happy"
I cannot count how many times have I heard someone
utter this same wish desperately.
Hopeful for a chance to be truly joyful and at peace.
Bidding to feel that certain sense of self-value and fulfillment.
I had wished for that same thing over and over again.
I triumphed fairly enough.
Stumbled a few times.
Gave up a little.
Got tired a bit.
To seek for that simple but baffling word-- HAPPINESS.
And yet--just like the rest of us,
I tried over and over again.
Harder and harder as I could.
And there is no way I am stopping now or ever.
I've tasted a dose of it that I know that
to be happy is worth all the risks I will take.
And so I am now-- taking risks and


Friday, February 8, 2013


The Mayan Prophecy unfold.
What if it's really the end of the world?
What are the things that you'd want to do?
Who is the person you would rather be with?
What would be your last words?
Have you done enough?
Said enough?
Lived enough?
When all of these will be gone--
do you think you have mattered enough?
Have you loved enough?
Gave enough?
Have you shown enough?
If today is indeed the last day of your life--
will you leave without any I SHOULD HAVE's,
without any WHAT IF's or IF ONLY's,
without any regrets.


**last day of Earth based on the Mayan prophecy
a postdated blog

Thursday, February 7, 2013



Silence speaks louder than words.
Coz your smile it just made my heart melt.
Can't stop it from beating rhymes with yours.
Can't make any sense out of this,
but I know that I'm yours.

As high as the moon goes.
That's how high my soul soars.
When you say my name,
when you my name. 

You opened my eyes,
to see only beauty.
There's nothing I can't seem to hear now.
But only melodies.

And I don't know why.
It happened so fast.
But I am so sure that
I want this to last.

When you say my name.
Everything's right.
And I can't ask for more..
than to hear you, hear you.

**a song written for a very dear someone from my past


I had this guy-- he was pretty special.
We had something special.
I loved him.
I believed he loved me back.
But we were both hostages of our pride.
We are prisoners of our own emotions.
Never wanting to be the first to break the silence.
We dreaded rejection.
We feared disappointment.
We avoided failure.
We waited for each other--
of who would raise the flag first.
But somehow, we grew tired of waiting--
until we strayed away.
And  until now--
that stench of WHAT IF is still hanging around somewhere.
WHAT IF I gave in.
WHAT IF we had something right.
WHAT IF we had a chance.
What if. What if.
I loved him-- in a very very dear way I know.
And somehow-- I just wish he knew.

**an old blog for an old friend

Wednesday, February 6, 2013


He is my DUTCHMAN*.
And just like the ghost ship--
he slips away when I'm close.
He disappears when I'm near.
Always pushing me back to the shore.
I always chase after him.
But he would always outwit me.
Yet, I'm always hanging on.
For he is my Dutchman.
And he will always wait for me--
hoping to be found.


*an untraceable ship.


Someone will come and will change your world forever.
Someone who would make everything different--
and yet somehow better.
Someone who would own you--
and yet you wouldn't feel as much freedom when he is around.
The one who you'd wait for, live for and exist for.
The one who would control your every emotion.
And you'd feel trapped.
But the thing is-- you would never wish to escape from it.
Coz that someone is the one you would belong to.


Tuesday, February 5, 2013


Something so scary couldn't be this great.
Something so unexpected couldn't be this welcomed.
Something brought by pain couldn't be this loved.
My thoughts maybe hazed-- but this is the only thing I am sure of.
And there's nothing, but all smiles from today.
Like no heart could contain the happiness which was found.
Like everything suddenly is a lot easier.
Every ache washed away.
Every prayer answered.
Every doubt calmed down.
Everything back to wonderful once again.
And nothing could actually bring you down now.
Not possibly this time that your miracle has come.


one bucket list entry DONE!^^
Witness a miracle.^^ which we do everyday-- DONE!^^

Friday, February 1, 2013


We all search for that great love--
The kind that will make us shiver.
The one that will overwhelm and melt our hearts.
A love that will never judge,
but rather, would appreciate and accept.
The kind that will fill our emptiness and creep to our very soul.
A love that will never seize.
A love that is infinite.
The kind of love that will make us complete.
And there is this one man--
without any doubts, has given this love.
Gave his life, took the pain and saved us.
And he is just wishing for one tiny little thing in return.
And that is for us to come a bit closer to him-- 
So that HE could love us even more.^^