IN YOUR ARMS**

IN YOUR ARMS

Too much of you baby gets a hang on me

Too much of you lately sets my heart on glee

Yes I want to be with you, oh can't you see

Just take some time and look through me

I've been alone for  awhile, now set me free

From these chains that I've built inside of me

You see I was scared and I thought I shouldn't try

But for you I am willing now to cross that line

Oh I can't pretend anymore I don't love you

No I can't hide anymore what I'm going through

Oh my baby in your arms there's tomorrow

And now I'm willing to let go of sorrows

So come and drive me now away from these

Come let's share all our love and live in bliss

For nothing in this world right now I'd wish

But to be in your arms , to be in these arms just like this

Oh I can't pretend anymore I don't love you

No I can't hide anymore what I'm going through

Oh my baby in your arms there's tomorrow

And now I'm willing to let go of sorrows

In your arms baby

Right where you're holding me

In your arms baby

In your arms I see

In your arms baby

All I want to be

Is to be in your arms arms arms

To be in your arms

Right here with me.

**song written on 13 April 2013

I SHOULD HATE YOU MAYBE

I SHOULD HATE YOU MAYBE

I thought what I had is gem

I thought what I need is you

I thought we can pull this through

But I'm wrong and you're nothing

But a shame for loving

Cause you lied when you said you love

And you lied every time you look at me

You lied every time you kissed me

So maybe maybe maybe

I should hate you maybe maybe

You thought that I am your fool

You thought I'll just stick with you

You thought I can't go on without you

You are wrong and I'm stronger

That I can just leave you anytime

Cause you lied when you said you love

And you lied every time you look at me

You lied every time you kissed me

So maybe maybe maybe

I should hate you maybe maybe

Maybe I tried too much

Maybe I should have not

Maybe you thought you won this

But baby you're wrong

I am better than all these

And now I can go on with my life

Cause you lied and you said you love

And you lied every time you look at me

You lied when you said you love me

You lied every time you kissed me

Ohh you lied, you lied

So maybe maybe maybe

I should hate you maybe maybe

I'm so sure I'm better lately

Now that I hate you maybe maybe

I'm so sure I'm better lately

When I hate you maybe maybe

**song written on January 2013

STRENGTH IN SURRENDER

Having some is better than nothing at all--until it's not.
For sometimes, it is actually much wiser to just let it all go.
Sadly however, human nature meddles greatly with that.
That even if letting go is the right thing to do,
that is not what we people are made of.
We hang on.
We possess.
We linger.
For we are arrogant.
We are proud.
We hate to be defeated.
We don't want to lose.
And somehow letting go feels like losing.
Even at times we're utterly sure it is not.
Though we absolutely know that's the right thing to do.
Though we know that it's time.
Though every logic suggests so.
Though we're aware that we already have done everything we could
and have exhausted every possibility there is.
Still, we find it frustratingly hard to shake off the feeling
that maybe we could still do something more.
That there's still a fight left in us.
Until we grow desperate, frustrated and tired.
And in the end-- it's just us versus ourselves.
And as every reason would predict--
in that game we'll always lose.

We are scared to let go.
We fear stopping and putting an end to things
because we are petrified of starting all over again.
But be true to yourself,
is just having "SOME" really okay for you?
Is that just really what you deserve?
Or are you undermining yourself value by just being okay with that?

We are sometimes faced with an obstacle so big
that we think we cannot do it.
But then we are also sure that the only way through is to get over it.
And we can.
There is always a way out even in the face of the impossible.
Instead of being scared, be inspired-- for you'll sure be better.
For sometimes, all we need is to just remind ourselves
of the things we truly deserve and our rightful worth.

When you know that you could have so much more by walking away,
never be scared of taking that first step hence off
and remember that there is strength in surrender.
Bear in mind that no matter sad or terrible things seem to be today,
it will all be alright eventually.
We might think that life is so hard,we might lose the heart and falter,
but eventually we'll wake up without giving a damn about what worried us.
For aside from our possessive human nature,
our greater human instinct is survival and change.
People forget.
People move on.
That's what we people do-- WE SURVIVE.^^