STRENGTH IN SURRENDER

Having some is better than nothing at all--until it's not.
For sometimes, it is actually much wiser to just let it all go.
Sadly however, human nature meddles greatly with that.
That even if letting go is the right thing to do,
that is not what we people are made of.
We hang on.
We possess.
We linger.
For we are arrogant.
We are proud.
We hate to be defeated.
We don't want to lose.
And somehow letting go feels like losing.
Even at times we're utterly sure it is not.
Though we absolutely know that's the right thing to do.
Though we know that it's time.
Though every logic suggests so.
Though we're aware that we already have done everything we could
and have exhausted every possibility there is.
Still, we find it frustratingly hard to shake off the feeling
that maybe we could still do something more.
That there's still a fight left in us.
Until we grow desperate, frustrated and tired.
And in the end-- it's just us versus ourselves.
And as every reason would predict--
in that game we'll always lose.

We are scared to let go.
We fear stopping and putting an end to things
because we are petrified of starting all over again.
But be true to yourself,
is just having "SOME" really okay for you?
Is that just really what you deserve?
Or are you undermining yourself value by just being okay with that?

We are sometimes faced with an obstacle so big
that we think we cannot do it.
But then we are also sure that the only way through is to get over it.
And we can.
There is always a way out even in the face of the impossible.
Instead of being scared, be inspired-- for you'll sure be better.
For sometimes, all we need is to just remind ourselves
of the things we truly deserve and our rightful worth.

When you know that you could have so much more by walking away,
never be scared of taking that first step hence off
and remember that there is strength in surrender.
Bear in mind that no matter sad or terrible things seem to be today,
it will all be alright eventually.
We might think that life is so hard,we might lose the heart and falter,
but eventually we'll wake up without giving a damn about what worried us.
For aside from our possessive human nature,
our greater human instinct is survival and change.
People forget.
People move on.
That's what we people do-- WE SURVIVE.^^

SANG-FROID

*SANG-FROID (n.) the ability of a person to remain calm even in a dangerous or difficult situation, his composure under strain


I AM A GREAT ENOUGH PERSON.
I sometimes forget that and today
I am reminding myself of my worth.

Somehow, we are all great enough creatures.
Great enough to  deserve both pride and compassion--
no matter what.
We may not be all that grand enough to become A SOMEBODY.
Nor exalted enough to be A SOMEONE.
Yet we are all worthy enough to have a fair share  of human happiness.
Good enough to be alright with who we are.

I can certainly never do as much with my life as I want to,
there is no denying that.
I may even sometimes fail miserably to live up to what I've done or not do,
I am absolutely aware of that.
But I am still terribly glad that I exist,
I am still here,
still fighting the battle,
still playing the game,
still struggling to survive,
still wanting to be me.
And when I have not enough to think about it--
I am still terribly proud to be the person that I am.

I am a person. 
I struggle to remake myself and challenge the present me.
I celebrate and I ache.
I make mistakes and I strain to forgive.
I am proud, then I face defeat.
I think I knew it all and then I learn.
I am the man that I am--
and there's plenty that I'll give just to change
some things that I have done,
but here I am and this is just what there is.
I am without doubt that life isn't always suppose to be happy.
And that fact makes me stronger.
For obstacles made me fight all the more harder.
Nothing is guaranteed in this life--
but there is always a chance, if you will just not give up.
To always better yourself.
To always uphold your dignity and honor.
To uphold a purpose greater than yourself.
That's what I believe makes a person great enough.

I know that the important things in life are also the really difficult ones.
That deep lessons are learned in proximity to sorrow, loss and failure.
That hardships are not only inevitable--
they are indispensable part of a lifelong education.
So as we all do, I also keep on reinventing myself.
This world can change in an instant and one snap and then POOF!
Suddenly there is no looking back.
And so all I can do is to stand still at this very moment,
and do what is called for me to do.
I take pride in the dignity of the person that I am.
I am not patronizing myself, I am not any kind of hero.
I do not fancy myself still as a particularly good person.
I am not even a SOMEBODY.
But I strive not to be a NOBODY.
I am but a person.
And I may not really know for sure what life truly is--
but I am certainly aware that it is imperative to LIVE IT--
AND LIVE IT RIGHT.^^

VERITATEM**

**VERITATEM (n.) Latin for THE TRUTH 

I believe in TRUTH-- and its pursuit.
We always demand for the truth,
and yet we are so coward to accept and recognize it at times.
We often have a vested interest in ignoring it
or worse, outright denying it.
We are scared of it.
So we just beget what's easier to live by.
We create a false solitude in our head,
and wish that everything will just work out in time.

But just mere thinking about something doesn't make it true--
that we must understand.
Truth is not relative.
Truth is not subjective.
Truth is paramount.
Truth is ultimate.
Truth is elusive and many times hidden.
We sometimes wish to disregard it,
but we cannot, no matter how hard we try,
run away from it.

For we owe it to ourselves to try to figure out things.
We are indebted to find out what really happened.
We are obligated to know how things really are.
Coz we owe it to ourselves to have REAL answers.
Truth is inevitable for growth.
It is necessary for us to unravel to something more--
something better.
Truth is required to change and let go.
Because in order to move forward,
we must understand why we must
no longer be in that place anymore.
We must know.

That's why a lot of people go through hell
just to discover and verify what's true--
that's human nature, the urge to seek.
We inquire until our answers are answered.
We pursue until we are satisfied.
Because the truth heals,
it guarantees that we have binding reasons
to carry on with our lives.^^

VERITAS LIBERABIT VOS^^